The Lotus Blooms..."Nam Myoho Renge Kyo"

The victory is nearby...of my faith and my practice and the divine chants..It's going to be almost an year that i was accepted as a member of SGI family, after being introduced by Swati on 12 July 2010. But i have been into chanting from quite some time. To be honest i have not devotedly did my Daimoku and daily gong-yo or even missed few of the study meetings. However I cannot deny the power and protection of Gohonzon whenever i called for his help and guidance. I cannot forget those days and moments when i took shelter in its faith and belief followed by my clarity of vision and a sudden solution to my bothering problems. Yes, it may sound as miracles but all my answers were listened to. Well, here i would want to make e point that, my practice and faith besides teaching me to rely on the power and principles of lotus sutra, also teaches me the great art of acceptance. There are certain events and incidents which are pre-destined and thus should not be disturbed to change its course in order to satisfy our wants and urges. My practice and membership in SGI have brought immense inner strength, and an omnipresent sense of calm inside me, that have put me into peace with myself, that have taught me to stand still in face of all adversities with stoicism and honesty. it has taught me to expect nothing that i do not deserve or cannot preserve. and above all i learn t the lesson of letting off of things that are not meant to be with me. Am thankful to my Gohonzon!

Write To live

Writing for my own blog is like having a soliloquy..it's like standing near a mirror seeing my own reflection..and sometimes or better say most of the times, it's the trickiest thing to do!We live at a time where 'distance' plays the major role in our existences, however close we might feel to each other coz of the electronic factors like internet, social networking and televisions etc...but a strange dissociation always prevails. And it's the ugliest when we part away from our owns selves..we stop relating to our inner realm...it's a loss if at the end of the day we fail to gather our dislocated pieces of mind, soul and heart. And thus I feel at complete ease with myself when I write..not for an earning or out of a compulsion..but just to my heart's desire. I write on everything and anything that bothers and amuses or surprises me...write away all that crap and trash out of my heart and mind...write and vent out all the negativity and sadism that create disturbances within. Write to the glory of life and wisdom...to the darkness of pain and fear...write to at times hide my tears and shame...I write to keep myself alive and kicking the blues out of my life! Cheers!!...to words! Hail Expressions!!

A Demon In Disguise

We all have it in us…in differing levels although! Some deny it and some has the courage to acknowledge it. Still some has the guts to celebrate it openly!  It is a kind of inheritance that has been passed down to us from our forefathers since a long time. Of all nations India possess it in the most striking varieties. If dealt with wisdom and honesty, its survival can be challenged greatly. But still the slightest of residue might remain…unknown to the person, who’s carrying it. In relationships it plays a major source of disgust and disrespect…hidden bitterness and dishonesty with full of biased behavior towards people and oneself. In professional life, it brings in enemies in disguise and results in loosing co-employees’ trust and reliance. It distances you from your reality, it distances your individuality and honesty, and it distances you from truth, courage, justice and dignity. A person possessed with it cannot differentiate between the right and the wrong, the real and the unreal, the truth and the lie. It is a contagious disease that turns its patient into a backstabber, a pretentious mischief-maker, a sadist and sometimes a dominating destructor. It is none other than ‘HYPOCRISY’! Beware of its entity…don’t let it beguile your soul! It’s lurking somewhere nearby…! It’s a demon in disguise.

Ode to Eternity...

Ode to Love...

Ode to Oblivion...

Ode to Nocturnal...

Mystery of Two Worlds!

There are two worlds in the life of every person, the world which we live within, and the one that lives within us. The two antipodal identities of two different worlds. The external world remind us of our roots, our attachments to other existences and relationships with our near and dear ones, it reminds us of our social affiliations and responsibilities.

The external world most importantly bind us with the universal ties of humanity and belonging. However, the importance of the external world seldom overshadows the significance of our internal kingdom! The world that resides within us without a public appearance is the most undemanding one, harmonizing our internal disparities and restoring the most needed spiritual calm...and all it expects from us is just a celebration of our individuality and original nature and innate innocence. It is the budding ground of our deepest emotions and truest expressions...it is the cradle of all our creativity and mighty imaginations. It is the land of dreams that relieves us from the harsh realities of the external world! It revives and rejuvenates our soul and spirit to confront life and its roller coaster rides..the tides and ebbs of time and the grimaces of fate. Often we attend to just the external entity at the expense of the inner world of us, or vice versa.

Let's see for instance what happens when we ignore our external world of reality and take resort in our inner oblivion. You must have heard of a term called 'hedonism'. Yes, people who forget about their external responsibilities to become a slave to their self centered desires and dreams and loose their practical mind to follow the night fires of their fantasies in search of supposedly salvation and freedom are the losers who are called the 'escapists'. With their continuous drift from the natural and universal ties with other living entities and worldly duties, they isolate themselves further from all sense of belonging and finally lose in the dark and labyrinth myth of their own mind. But similar is the condition of those who separate themselves form their inner cosmos. After a certain time, they tend to forget their individuality and true nature and innateness, they lose connection with their creativity and originality. They tend to forget what they want from life, who they actually are and what they truly desire form life, giving way to frustrations and disillusions, a feeling of meaninglessness and obligatory existence.

Thus the imbalance between the two worlds results into a clash and chaotic disparity between our heart and head, our logic and feelings, our thoughts and ideas and our practicality and emotions! So, we should never let the ground of reality beneath our feet go apart as well as never should deter from looking high at the sky of our endless imaginations. Together they decide where we belong, where we stand and where would we reside!

The day I took birth...It was my birthday!!

So what! The meaning of it has reduced to just a summation of a digit, addition of a year to my existence...fortunate or unfortunate, I wouldn't go to that discussion. Nevertheless, for a die-hard optimist and a hopeless romanticist like me, blows and blunders of destiny and fate hold but little importance...what bothers me is my never ending hope of a new beginning! I was somehow determined to spend the day normally and without much hollow hypes and far cries, but even without riding a hobby-horse, I had a great fall from all my minimum wishful thoughts of the day! Well, as usual I just shrugged the hurt and dirt, looked around merrily as if nothing happened (grimacing with good humour) and walked ahead with an undying zeal in search of few happy moments, fighting back the tears all the time. Sometimes the presence of the ones whom you love the most becomes so hauntingly indifferent and hurting that you would rather feel like sobbing in loneliness than putting a fake smile for them!  But then at night I wished myself with a new dream in eyes 'Happy Birthday To me'!!

All is but an Illusion...

Until recently I never knew that all in life is but an illusion...and relationships appear to be so vague and faded each day that it perplexes me to my utter dismay...I feel lost in this vanity fair called 'Life'. Sometimes I ask myself the reason of my existence and wonder what would be the cause of my extinction. Do I at all belong here? Am I living or dying each day to feel alive after I meet my end? Insane questions abound my head...and I can't stop thinking...Am I going mad? Perhaps not, perhaps yes, but nothing would matter until it I keep on wearing this mask of normalcy.

The constant mutation of emotions, relationships and people around me forces me to be a part of this process and it scares me like hell! I do not want to change myself! I do not want to move an inch towards this madness! I do not want to fall in its trap of deceptions in disguise! However, they call me a coward, a back-dated creature, who soon will be history! I cannot take part in this crazy race of mind games!

'Life's a strange story'

"Life's a strange story...i don't know whether its the beginning of an end or the end of all beginnings...i don't know whether am moving ahead or being pulled behind by the unseen hands of fate...whether am standing on the threshold of extinction or witnessing a new horizon of hope...I am scared and clueless with its labyrinthine ways of complicated simplicities".

I know i kinda weave a web of words! But more than confusing my readers, it expresses my inner confusion regarding the unpredictability and ever-changing faces of life and time! To tell you honestly, I always felt insecure of the changes and dynamism of situations, people and relationships around me, but then I can't help realizing the only constant thing on earth-'Change'. Perplexing and amusing at the same time...the story of life goes on...irrespective of our expectations and plans, oblivion of our hopes and disappointments...overlooking our joy or sorrows! It's lost in its own twists and turns! May be, that's why they say ''Accept Life with its own terms".

Parallel Worlds

There are parallel worlds co-existing with ours...the world of nature and super-nature..the inner world of subconscious mind..the world of mysticism and magical realism..the unseen and esoteric world of all that goes beyond our five senses. It's time we acknowledge  the essence of the planes that embraces us all alike...beasts and humans, flowers and thorns, the seen and the unseen, the fragrance and the foul-smell, for we cannot anymore deny the power of elements and the omnipresence of nature above all of us!!

Since childhood, I have always sensed the eternal presence of the 'unseen', 'unheard' and  the 'unknown'. I always have let my more-vivid-than-myself imagination fly high in realms, where my physical body can't reach! I always believed that we can listen to the sound of silence, can converse with the moon above, can feel the warmth and energy of the wet soil beneath our feet, can let the power of water heal us intensely! It might sound crazy to many but I always believed in the all embracing...all nurturing powers of the elements and nature. There are multiple worlds that exist within and without our 5 senses! The world of balanced, omnipresent, all-pervasive truth of life and death.