All is but an Illusion...

Until recently I never knew that all in life is but an illusion...and relationships appear to be so vague and faded each day that it perplexes me to my utter dismay...I feel lost in this vanity fair called 'Life'. Sometimes I ask myself the reason of my existence and wonder what would be the cause of my extinction. Do I at all belong here? Am I living or dying each day to feel alive after I meet my end? Insane questions abound my head...and I can't stop thinking...Am I going mad? Perhaps not, perhaps yes, but nothing would matter until it I keep on wearing this mask of normalcy.

The constant mutation of emotions, relationships and people around me forces me to be a part of this process and it scares me like hell! I do not want to change myself! I do not want to move an inch towards this madness! I do not want to fall in its trap of deceptions in disguise! However, they call me a coward, a back-dated creature, who soon will be history! I cannot take part in this crazy race of mind games!