Ode to Eternity...

Ode to Love...

Ode to Oblivion...

Ode to Nocturnal...

Mystery of Two Worlds!

There are two worlds in the life of every person, the world which we live within, and the one that lives within us. The two antipodal identities of two different worlds. The external world remind us of our roots, our attachments to other existences and relationships with our near and dear ones, it reminds us of our social affiliations and responsibilities.

The external world most importantly bind us with the universal ties of humanity and belonging. However, the importance of the external world seldom overshadows the significance of our internal kingdom! The world that resides within us without a public appearance is the most undemanding one, harmonizing our internal disparities and restoring the most needed spiritual calm...and all it expects from us is just a celebration of our individuality and original nature and innate innocence. It is the budding ground of our deepest emotions and truest expressions...it is the cradle of all our creativity and mighty imaginations. It is the land of dreams that relieves us from the harsh realities of the external world! It revives and rejuvenates our soul and spirit to confront life and its roller coaster rides..the tides and ebbs of time and the grimaces of fate. Often we attend to just the external entity at the expense of the inner world of us, or vice versa.

Let's see for instance what happens when we ignore our external world of reality and take resort in our inner oblivion. You must have heard of a term called 'hedonism'. Yes, people who forget about their external responsibilities to become a slave to their self centered desires and dreams and loose their practical mind to follow the night fires of their fantasies in search of supposedly salvation and freedom are the losers who are called the 'escapists'. With their continuous drift from the natural and universal ties with other living entities and worldly duties, they isolate themselves further from all sense of belonging and finally lose in the dark and labyrinth myth of their own mind. But similar is the condition of those who separate themselves form their inner cosmos. After a certain time, they tend to forget their individuality and true nature and innateness, they lose connection with their creativity and originality. They tend to forget what they want from life, who they actually are and what they truly desire form life, giving way to frustrations and disillusions, a feeling of meaninglessness and obligatory existence.

Thus the imbalance between the two worlds results into a clash and chaotic disparity between our heart and head, our logic and feelings, our thoughts and ideas and our practicality and emotions! So, we should never let the ground of reality beneath our feet go apart as well as never should deter from looking high at the sky of our endless imaginations. Together they decide where we belong, where we stand and where would we reside!

The day I took birth...It was my birthday!!

So what! The meaning of it has reduced to just a summation of a digit, addition of a year to my existence...fortunate or unfortunate, I wouldn't go to that discussion. Nevertheless, for a die-hard optimist and a hopeless romanticist like me, blows and blunders of destiny and fate hold but little importance...what bothers me is my never ending hope of a new beginning! I was somehow determined to spend the day normally and without much hollow hypes and far cries, but even without riding a hobby-horse, I had a great fall from all my minimum wishful thoughts of the day! Well, as usual I just shrugged the hurt and dirt, looked around merrily as if nothing happened (grimacing with good humour) and walked ahead with an undying zeal in search of few happy moments, fighting back the tears all the time. Sometimes the presence of the ones whom you love the most becomes so hauntingly indifferent and hurting that you would rather feel like sobbing in loneliness than putting a fake smile for them!  But then at night I wished myself with a new dream in eyes 'Happy Birthday To me'!!

All is but an Illusion...

Until recently I never knew that all in life is but an illusion...and relationships appear to be so vague and faded each day that it perplexes me to my utter dismay...I feel lost in this vanity fair called 'Life'. Sometimes I ask myself the reason of my existence and wonder what would be the cause of my extinction. Do I at all belong here? Am I living or dying each day to feel alive after I meet my end? Insane questions abound my head...and I can't stop thinking...Am I going mad? Perhaps not, perhaps yes, but nothing would matter until it I keep on wearing this mask of normalcy.

The constant mutation of emotions, relationships and people around me forces me to be a part of this process and it scares me like hell! I do not want to change myself! I do not want to move an inch towards this madness! I do not want to fall in its trap of deceptions in disguise! However, they call me a coward, a back-dated creature, who soon will be history! I cannot take part in this crazy race of mind games!